She's a superstar

PLEASE, DO NOT READ: I'M JUST THINKING. DO NOT READ
DON'T BOTHER TO CALL, JUST LET ME FALL.

Gonna write tonite, coz my friend Milk went to a party AND he left me alone; I've been talkin' to loads of people after a long time, P. most of all, he always just impresses me so much because - you might be reading- because he knows what to do and what to say with me, because it's good to know that someone knows you so well, it's all in the mind and he trust me since I was just a little free gurlie and Dvd - he knows me, but I wish I were a better person FOR him, one who doesn't care about...about what? all, and dreams are real, I'm sure they're just another world to live and our better way of life because no-one's gonna miss anyone, because I can love all the people I do love and I'm way more interesting than I am right now. You're gonna hate me for all this, you'll tell me to shut up even if you'll be very kind while tellin' me it's over and we're not gonna be together again, but I can't make it like this, I need to be called darlin', and need to know there are one, no, two, no! three, four (five after all) people thinkin'about me and I'm evil and selfish, but at the end people like me like this, I suppose. Because I love these people, I love all of them and I don't care about time: I still love Platone, ra_F99 or my Russian mate even though I will never meet him again. That word - never- sounds incredible to me, because I cant really get into its meaning...it doesn't scary me that much though. There's ALWAYS a time in life when you just go back to the path you've been walkin' before and you need to hear the voices of the people that were tryin' to fuck you or those you misunderstood, Our MadR. sings it over and over again shakin' his hand with his bare feet on a filthy carpet (AND I'VE SEEN IT BEFORE): "I took those pills it was wind in her sails, she climbed so high, i dont know why, high on her own and I know she's in the air and I dont want it to go, I can feel it but I dont want it to go" 'til it's 8:58 minutes! We need to build a time machine to get back home, that's all they suggested me, but they won't work for me, not if I don't end my travel with them and I cant choose, I dont fuckin' want to. You see the stars as I see my pinkish pills whenever I forget to go down and sleep at the right time cos I'm sleeping mates don't worry about my words: this is just TRUE you know that beacause telepathy will be with us forever and ever and we feel the pain flowing away on a river of sound. Listen to me, speak to me, fuck with me, dream with me, don't ask me what this is, just be with me and make me breath. That's what happens in case you still need to know that, but please take care of your stomach and eat well; I just wonder about my sons I hope they'll be as good as me, but with stronger teeth and one of them I'm gonna name him Antinoo because me mum loves that and I don't know why I cant sleep like a magnetic field around my head and my sins, because I wanna be a first class sinner, you don't know what I was thinkin' about when I WAS LOOKIN' AT YOU, you don't know I've seen you naked and I WILL, because I promised. I love that voice; but why did you leave me here?? Please dont ask again what's good about it, you see it's just like this and if you don't like this call them in their office; they dont know that we can do that; I strongly believe in reincarnation without flowers and I think I know my grandma's dog must be someone we knew before because she's trying to tell us something while we just feed her, but she gets sad because she realize she's damned and we think we're good to her, but we're just fookin' morons. OH MY fuckin' hell!! Your ideal job is a MERMAID!! And the good thing is YOU ARE one!! Oh my God I feel so tired and there's nothing workin' anymore, just your face next to the door tryin' to steal my bones.
'Night everyone. Oh no, fuckin' hell, DO NOT READ.